random

i had a interesting ytd after school as the less than 15mins bus journey back was an awesome exposure to a guy's world of thoughts. had a few 235 guys at the bus stop. unfortunately they were getting on the same bus for me. and they sat ard me. and the 2 at the back had the most oh-my-god bitch chat. i mean, imagine bastards bitchin? here's some extracts...

A: you're not calling cherie along to zouk future tonight?
B: nah, shes got a boyfriend.
A: really?
B: yar man, her boyfriend is like fat
A: fat as in? jus slightly bulky, ugly or jus fat?
B: no boy, hes fat - the fat fat
A: oh, then i guess shes with him for money or something la. definately not love
B: hmm, theyve been together for 3 years.
A: oh, then i think its love.


=.= MY FACE.

it so... unbelievable.. so ladies, u can never imagine what men are sayin about you..


all of a sudden many random thoughts fill my mind.

somehow, i still very much believe that at the end of the day, it'd be jus one man for him/herself. its never a lie. admit the truth, and stop livin in self denial. sometimes, jus when one feels that you've given it your best, you realise that theres this one person who will try to take more out of you. more than you have, more than you can ever give. more than your limits, more than your means. then.. slowly, you see you fading..

you wake up asking what are you doing with your life. you answer an awesome answer. you get your split second Rocky moment but still at the end of the day, you're broken. your confidence has shattered. your heart broken.

for this moment, i lose my faith in love.